Crossroads

I stand at a crossroads
but cannot see their paths
if I take either one
there’ll be no turning back
I’ve prepared for this pain
I have been here before
but can I endure it
to say goodbye once more
driven to revisit
where my heart has tarried
and heave this great burden
of lorn love I’ve carried
all my moments alone
I can feel her with me
it stops me where I stand
and brings me to my knee
each time I try to rise
a piece of me is lost
please no more lives for me
I forfeit futures’ cost
thus I take this last chance
to see if hope survives
but if fate offers none
then I’ll be dead inside
I’ll write poems in air
and sing my sparrow’s song
and live out my last days
regretting all my wrongs